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Little Juliette // Los Angeles newborn photography

Los Angeles newborn photography // ©2017 Sun & Sparrow family and newborn photographer in Los Angeles

The Stillness of Motherhood // From our new mommy, Autumn Krauss

“What are you running from?”

I was asked this question a long time ago. Eleven years ago, to be exact. It was asked in a generic Starbucks by a guy that I no longer know but I remember that he paid for my Caramel Macchiato and pulled out my chair, even though we were at a coffee shop and I thought that was weird. Yet, somehow, even though I can’t really remember his face (I feel like he was blond?) or even his last name, his question has come with me as I’ve passed the markers of life: getting a masters degree, getting married, getting pregnant.

I think it’s stayed with me because, when it slips up to me in moments of quiet, I tell myself it’s not true, though I have a sense that ironically, I’m trying to outrun a question about how I am running from things—and that those things have unpleasant names like Fear and Anger and Doubt. Always Doubt.

When I became pregnant with my daughter, Juliet, I started running within the perimeters of my life: I took on as much work as possible, I went to the gym incessantly, I saw friends near and far, I designed a nursery for Juliet, I took pictures for my Instagram, I kept busy, busy, busy and that busyness was exhausting but that exhaustion was better than the stillness of my own thoughts.

Then she came. Juliet. Born on October 20th, a day before the hottest week of the year. And I quickly learned something about babies. You can’t outrun them. They tether you, they keep you, they pull you into their rhythms and mysteries and suddenly you find yourself feeding your baby at 4am and you can’t go anywhere and you’re tired of looking at your phone and then the question comes to you in the dark: “What are you running from?”

You can’t put the baby down to go do something so you must wrestle but you are so very tired, so the wrestling turns to prayer: Lord, Have Mercy and you pray for yourself and your little girl with a desperate sincerity that you’ve never had before. And while that darkness is still there, wrapped all around you, it begins to feel more like the thing that will save you rather than drown you and you think that there just might be sanctification in the stillness of motherhood.

Cozy in-home family session in San Pedro // Sidwell Family

Cozy in-home family session in San Pedro // Sidwell Family @ 2019 Sun & Sparrow // Los Angelos County family photographers

Daniel & Ellen // Redondo Beach maternity photographer

Redondo Beach maternity photographer // ©2018 Sun & Sparrow Redondo Beach maternity Photography

FROM OUR MOMMY // How blessed are we! We waited patiently for the right time in our lives to welcome this baby – a time where our hearts could be full and fully available. The timing, the journey, everything, has fallen so perfectly into place, we are constantly in gratitude. Although a bit overwhelmed with our lack of knowledge and experience (as any first-time parents are), we are ecstatic to welcome Baby Ng very, very soon! We hope only to do our best in raising a kind, patient, and loving person – so much of what we need in this world today. Hopefully the journey ahead is (as close to as) smooth as the one we’ve had so far (yeah right, but it doesn’t hurt to hope!). As our lives change drastically, we look forward to making many more beautiful memories from a couple to now a family of 3!


Jared & Alexis // Whimsical Fairytale Maternity photographer in Los Angeles

Whimsical Fairytale Maternity photographer in Los Angeles // ©2018 Sun & Sparrow maternity photographer

FROM THE MOMMY TO BE //  Jared and I met in high school, but started dating in our mid-twenties.  After dating for seven years, we were married in June of 2017 in Los Cabos, Mexico.  We decided to wait a few months to try and get pregnant, and on our first real month of trying in November 2017 we did it! We were both shocked at how quickly it happened for us, but absolutely overjoyed.  Being pregnant has been the most beautiful and wonderful experience of my life. I have enjoyed every second of being pregnant, even with all the aches and pains. Watching my body grow and create new life amazes me every day, which is why it was so important to me to capture the way I look with photographs, so that I can always look back on this time in our lives. I am so excited to become a mommy! I have always loved children and have been surrounded by babies my whole life. Sometimes I still cannot believe its my turn to be a mom! I am most excited for that very first moment after our little girl is born when I get to hold her and look into her eyes for the first time.  I also cannot wait to see Jared become a daddy.  I know he is going to be amazing and I already find myself falling more and more in love with him every day.   I am also excited to watch our little Luciana grow into her own person and see the type of person she will become. 


Photographers: Sun & Sparrow | Florals: Tiffani from Sun & Sparrow | Dresses: www.fillyboomaternity.com | Hair& Makeup: Joanna Makowski |


TRAIN STATION FAMILY SESSION // JULIO & JENNY@ 2019 Sun & Sparrow // SoCal Family Photography

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